Quick Prelude to the next post/ It's ok to talk about relationships

What's been going on with me: I've been avoiding writting here for awhile. not knowing what to say or what was worth saying. A little lost and distraught but i have got the implant out of my arm and have felt much happier and positive ever since. I'm not sure if it's fully to blame, i'm sure the placebo affect has played a part in my recovery but if there is more natural chaos in my mnd and heart to over come then that is what I'll do. Today i want to build on my frst post.

I am still reading Eat Pray Love, my current guide to learning more about yourself and how to reflect, teach, and express it to others. Plus learning of fabulous itallian words, food and phillosphies. But Italy is over, (the time of pleasure and healing) we have now moved to India a place of discovery and deeper connection with ones self and ones chosen God. and yet this post will be again about break ups...? I don't know about you but this makes me laugh. Sure it seems a little rediculous, but these days in western culture, and especially for those of us with no religion or faith, what is it we most strive for? That person to make us 'whole' or 'complete' even writing this now there is a clear comparison to religion and our own relationships. Our expectations of both are rarely met. "Do you believe in true love or only having one soul mate?" suddenly reflects the feelings of "Do you believe in one true god?" I felt silly rehashing relationships and break ups but that is what we all strive for. It is one of the main inbuilt desires of humans to connect on such a level with another human being to the point of replicating a kind of divine intervention, destiny, and pure love. Who doesn't want to tap into that? Sounds pretty damn good to me. So i guess relationships will be a big feature of this blog as it is a huge part of the discussion of ourselves and how we relate to others, any sense of soul or divinty and the world itself. It's like Kathlyn Kelly (played by the wonderful and ever endearing Meg Ryan) in you've got mail when her little bookshop is being put out of business by Fox books superstore. Joe fox says It wasn't personal, to which she replies... "What is that supposed to mean? I am so sick of that. All that means is that it wasn't personal to you. But it was personal to me. It's *personal* to a lot of people. And what's so wrong with being personal, anyway? Whatever else anything is, it ought to begin by being personal."