shit

Returning home after time off is never easy, but especially when you've left to clear your head of negative and destructive thoughts. I took some time off to clear my head and instantly felt recharged and positive and ready to go back to work. But as soon as i got home i seemed to subconsciously pick up on everything. The slight everyday mess of the house made me feel like i was in a slum, and for some reason walking back into work made me panicky, nauseous and weak kneed.

Now I suppose this will always be the deal. The places you leave will not change while your gone, just your frame of mind, so you have to fight to keep that to bring it to the places you have a problem with. logical enough. Not the easiest thing to accomplish. Although this did also help me realise it's not just work that is causing these feelings. I need to sort out my home life too.